Having backache for more than a week already. See doctor also no use. Waste $80. Maybe I am getting old already. Sit also sit until backache. I heard from people sometimes this kind of things hard to cure one. It will stay with you for a long time. Haiiz yesterday still so kok play soccer then now pain again. Time to rest. No more running.

C -------------> G

在你身上付出我的爱

Am --------> Em

在你心中我应该

F ------------> C

留下快乐留下悲哀

F ----> G

我该不该

C --------------> G

在我心中留下你的爱

Am ---------> Em

是否明天会更改

F ---------------> C

至少我知道 我自己

F -> G --> C

不会再放开

Am I wasting time? Was doing the Financial Construction wadever project, I realised it is so hard to be a financial planner. There are so many rules and guidelines. One mistake and I may be dumped out of the industry for life? Will there still be people wanting my service? I really doubt so. I used to love reading the money section of the straits time. Looking at the STI and stocks seems fun to me at that time. But now I do not think its fun anymore. Its much more scary and practical than it seems to be. Being in a financial industry requires one to be sensitive to every financial news (feng chui cao dong), if not GONE, DIE OR WADEVER.

I really wonder whether I am right to choose this path. At the point of time, I was pressured into choosing a path. I just finished NS and my parents was like chasing me all day to make a choice. I wan to do media design but I was scared. Scared of failing because its much more not straightfoward. Now I really ponder. Pondering whether I can make it past this course with such limited interests. Pondering whether I have enough knowledge to fight it out in the harsh world with SO MANY FINANCIAL PEOPLE. Pondering whether I can provide a good life for my future family and my parents. I do not know but I will try for now.

Finally something good have happened to me during these few weeks. NO RECALL. Haha. Kept losing, then kept getting freak injuries and didn't do well for tests. Finally something good happen. If I got recalled, this will capped my most suay month. Lol. Hope my luck will change from today onwards. LoL.

From newpaper... So funny

This weekend got no recall. Hope there isnt any next weekend too. I realised I am missing alot of things from my pack. No helmet no nothing Lol. Tommorrow is test, read already but forget. I hope it will not be hard.

Tomorrow morning, I have to don my wonderful No.4 for the first time this year. The thought of it makes me sick. I thought the clerk had erased my name from the NSmen list but I was wrong. Haha fat hope. I do not know why I hate wearing my No.4 so much. It should be a proud thing right? Protect our country leh ! ! so wei da. But its just me. I just hate NS. Before enlistment, I was afraid. During service, I was pissed. After ORD I still hate it. Haha I been bitching about it for so many days. Nevermind. Tomorrow settle liao.

I was reading the web about the famous email written by a certain 2LT. Suddenly, I wonder who invented the chain of command thing. I do not think its effective at all. I mean when you want to complain, most of the times its about the stuffs around you. Things that concerns your peers or boss or your kakia. I mean if you want to complain about your boss, who should you complain to? According to the chain of command, its your boss!! They are say communication is important in battle. Sadly there is no communication in that organization. How are we going to go for battle if we do not even trust each other. What he did may be right or wrong according different people. But he did something that many "commoner" wanted to do but sadly can't. Maybe its a good thing afterall.

What's now from now?

I realised my life is so called "unplanned". I do not know whats the future holds for me. During my younger days (primary school), I thought I was smart. Never really study but still get good results. But things turned sour after that. Maybe I do not have the thrist of more knowledge. Life after that are "unplanned". I barely survived my secondary school days with many failures and the same can be said of my poly days. After that, I got into every male singaporean's nightmare which is the army which I got nothing out of it. I realised my life is wasted for years. My interests lies in my multimedia designing but interests doenst mean that its my strength. To survive in this industry, you have to be at the top of your game. To be the very best which its impossible to my opinion. So I took the easy option again (actually to be honest I have no choice). I came to SIM to study finance and business. But sadly, this is not really my interests as well. Thats why my life is still "unplanned".

I still do not know what my future lies for me. Be an accountant? hard. Be an finanical planner. stress. I do not know. Maybe I should start thinking about it. Because it is already over dued.

But one thing I know is that my future will always have you. :)

Have to go have to camp on Wedesday. I guess I have to part with my $50. But speaking honestly, which nsmen in a right mind will remb a sms or notice that is sent months back. Everybody will be busy with their own lives. Who will remb about mob briefing? Nvm its ok. Maybe its because I hate SAF. Who doesnt? Settle and get on with it.

67 mins gone ... pass pass pass pass .....back to keeper....
whats new anyway....

After months of waiting, football is finally back. However, familiar faces are gone. Where are my John Dykes, Steve McMahon and company. Well I guess I have to get used to it. At least, they have a channel that delicates football 24 hours. Well not so bad.

I hate SAF. They had wasted more than 2 years of my time.
Now they still want a piece of me. Agrhhh Bankai!

Having flu again. This is the second time i got it in a space of a month. I guess I need some rest. Been running around for the past few days. Lol